I thought saying goodbye and leaving London would easy because I felt so ready to go home. As my flatmates and I are cleaning the flat and packing all our bags we get several people coming down to say bye to us and it really hit me. These people, this program, living in London (and well, life in general) was so temporary, but they impacted me and was a huge part of my experience here. I'm usually the one always crying about "endings" and change, but this time around I am just so confident in the Lord and His plans for the future for me. These 4 months went by so quickly and I really did have the time of my life. I really didn't deserve coming here and I am just so thankful to have a God who is just so much bigger then I am and any situation. Thank You sending me home with so much peace in my heart. Thank You for providing and answering me when I cried out to you. When I was really at the lowest point of loneliness in the beginning of my program, R- kept reminding me I had to see why God brought me to London and what He had to show me. Once I figured it out, then I was ready to come back home. I couldn't give her an answer at the time, but now I'm ready.
I'm going back home with so much peace in my heart because I was able to learn to put all my trust in the Lord - to take care of my parents especially. That God would heal them through His power alone. To speak up for my Faith and to have encounters with those who are lost and to somehow point them to the cross. To learn that a Church isn't a museum, but a hospital. A place, where every single person is broken and flawed desperately seeking God to fix them. To find confidence as a Child of God and as a disciple. To not allow the fear of being judged stop me from spreading the love of God to anyone. To see first hand how big our world is and how much bigger God is. To lose the idea of how "big" I thought my own life was. To see how God is everywhere..moving and working in everyone's lives. To know how to desperately seek after God's guidance through living in a different country and traveling. To step back and see my life and the people in my life, outside of my comfort zone. To learn how to forgive and love despite my own selfish emotions. To see what my life could have been if Jesus didn't save me from my own dark and sinful life. To experience prayers being answered right in front of me. To find my identity not in the people around me, but in Christ alone.
T-15 hours til I leave London!
Thank you London Family!!
California Family, I am so excited to see you all!
Thanks for reading and watching me grow :'). xx
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